pondering

Eto daw ako...

2006-05-28T21:56:00.000-07:00

Does your name begin with: T
You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. (yeah...) You like someone who takes the lead. (yes, i do prefer that... pero pag no choice na... edi ako nalang...) You get turned on by music, soft lights & romantic thoughts. (oh yes... yes... yes... hahaha) You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon. (TRUE!) When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. (Amen...) You enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated & teased. (dont know... maybe...) You are a great flirt. (TRUE!) You can make your relationships fit your dreams, all in your own head. (...) Once you put your mind to something you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't very good at expressing your feelings. (onga... mababaliw na nga ata ako eh...) You like things your own way. You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. (siguro... paiba-iba rin...) This may not always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into great things. (ah ganon?) You work your way to the top. (yes!) Attention must be given to what others say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may turn out to save your life. ! (try ko...)

MARCH
Attractive personality (hmmm!)
Affectionate
Shy and reserved (sabi ng team lead ko... feeling ko naman sa start lang to... wala ata sa friends ko magsasabing shy ako...)
Secretive (secretive ba ko? di ko kaya mastop bibig ko... secrets ng iba kaya, pero pag secret ko di kaya...)
Naturally honest (well...!!!)
generous and sympathetic (generous ba ko? di ata... sympathetic pwede pa...)
Loves peace and serenity (who wouldn't?)
Sensitive to others (sometimes tactless ako eh... pero sensitive ako in the sense na i know when something's wrong with a person...)
Loves to serve others (oh?)
Not easily angered (NOT!!!!)
Trustworthy (oo naman)
Appreciative and returns kindness (yeah...)
Observant and assess others (super...)
Revengeful (super)
Loves to dream and fantasize (extremely...)
Loves travelling (super over mega to the max!!!)
Loves attention (ows?? it depends din...)
Hasty decisions in choosing partners (hahahahah!)
Loves home decors (extremely!!!)
Musically talented (am i??? not...)
Loves special things (who doesn't?)
Moody (OA talaga...)

Pisces

Turn ons
Pisces are very sensitive and charming people. If you are looking for someone who is understanding and can understand your feelings then you have met the right person. You should appreciate their feelings too and in the time when you need them they will help you. Pisces have keenly developed sixth sense and have great intuitive powers. Their hunches may usually be on the mark. But they can exhaust their physical and mental energies. They are born dreamers and you can build palaces with your dream lover (only in real life it may become a little difficult preposition).

Turn offs
Pisces are dreamers and you should not expect them to have worldly ambitions. They are not materialistic in nature. It is not that they like living below the poverty line but they have no earnest desire to accumulate wealth. They are very sensitive and you have to be always careful about their feelings. The fishes are capable of dr owning you in their tears (even men born under this sign). Pisces people are very intuitive but do not depend on them to make decision on important matters

(bala kayo kung gusto nyo yan paniwalaan!!!!!)

hahaha

Johari window

2006-04-26T23:35:00.000-07:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

dependable, happy, loving, observant, self-assertive, trustworthy

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able, brave, caring, cheerful, confident, extroverted, friendly, helpful, intelligent, kind, knowledgeable, mature, modest, proud, relaxed, religious, responsive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, shy, spontaneous, sympathetic, warm, wise, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

Unknown

(known to nobody)

accepting, adaptable, bold, calm, clever, complex, dignified, energetic, giving, idealistic, independent, ingenious, introverted, logical, nervous, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, reflective, searching, silly, tense

Dominant Traits

56% of people think that TessaGatmaitan is cheerful
87% of people think that TessaGatmaitan is intelligent

All Percentages

able (12%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (6%) calm (0%) caring (6%) cheerful (56%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (12%) dependable (6%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (6%) friendly (43%) giving (0%) happy (12%) helpful (12%) idealistic (0%) independent (0%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (87%) introverted (0%) kind (12%) knowledgeable (6%) logical (0%) loving (37%) mature (18%) modest (6%) nervous (0%) observant (12%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (12%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (6%) religious (6%) responsive (12%) searching (0%) self-assertive (18%) self-conscious (6%) sensible (12%) sentimental (25%) shy (12%) silly (0%) spontaneous (12%) sympathetic (12%) tense (0%) trustworthy (31%) warm (6%) wise (12%) witty (6%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 27.4.2006, using data from 16 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view'>http://kevan.org/johari?view=TessaGatmaitan">view TessaGatmaitan's full data.

It's about time...

2006-04-20T04:41:00.000-07:00

To write again here.... hahahahaha!!!!!!!!
nwei, i just want to share my Johari window to you!!
visit this... http://kevan.org/johari?view=TessaGatmaitan

a lot of things happend since the last time i wrote here... duh!? dapat lang... tagal na nun eh...
oh well... anyway, life has been a blast... ira and i celebrated our 3rd anniv last feb28... my super ok birthday (march 20)... but after a few days, march 24-28 it was hel... (i wasnt accepted for the position i was applying for at deutsche knowledge services *after 4 interviews!*, ira lied to me, we broke up...) but on April 17 *stan's bday*, we got back together. weee!!!"start over"...

yun lang... (konti lang pala eh... ahahahaah!)

4am

2005-12-10T00:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday... Well actually early this morning I was chatting with Rhye. He's my 0.5 ex. haha I dont usually count him cause we didn't last that long... A month and a half lang ata. and it was a rebound relationship. 1 month lang pagitan nila ng 1st ko.. and about a week after we broke up, i already had 2 new prospects. hahaha! (one of them became my 3rd bf...) But still, rhye is special to me. I know we never really loved each other... but we respect one another. they say old lovers can never be friends... i didnt believe it before, pero totoo nga pala sha. (though pwede pa rin maging civil ha? pero di na yung close-close talaga... in my opinion *i tried to befriend my ex-es kasi before... lagi nababalik yung past... well ok yun pag gusto mo mag-guilt trip*)
pero kay rhye di yun applicable, i guess kasi di ko naman nga sha cnonsider na ex... and besides i know that he didn't love me rin nman... quits lang! :) hahahaha

Tired

2005-12-09T10:52:00.000-08:00

The whole week, I left late at work... As in, I spend 12 hrs at work... from 8am to 8pm... I think until next week ganto... wahhh... super tired...
it's 3am... wondering why i'm still awake? wala lang... trying to download something... and it's been like 2 hrs... i dont know why tagal e one song lang naman and di naman dial-up connection... hay... i'm so sleepy....

night night

woohoo!!!!

2005-11-25T10:00:00.000-08:00

I'm back in the game!!!!!!

We've got an internet connection at our house again! woohooo!!!!!!

I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See yah friends!!!!!

Sana anjan pa kayo!
ahaha

Update...

2005-10-30T21:30:00.000-08:00

Sa office namin wala na mashado yari... Well, after ko yun magbigay ng letter of complaint sa management and after umiwas na ko sa mga officemates ko. yung sa management, wala ok naman. They asked me if I wanted to formally complain the investigator who harassed us or parang pang call lang ng attention sa officers ng company namin to be more responsible sa future. well, i chose the latter. Nwei, sa officemates ko naman. wala lang... may nangyari kasi which really REALLY made me doubt of their real intention/motives, whatever... Kaso no time to make kwento pa and actually they are not worth talking about. But basically, I don't trust them. And I just want to find another job.

Tapang ko kasi some of them know my blog site. but I really don't care na if they ever find out about this stuff I'm writing.

Hello...

2005-10-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

Grabe...................... miss ko na blogger... wahhhhhhhhhhh....
dami ko na di nakkwento... wahhhh...
nwei sa office mejo maayos na... plastikan nalang kami...
hay i want to look for another job na... di me sanay na nakikipagplastikan eh. hay.............

HAyyyyyyyyy.....

2005-10-06T18:37:00.000-07:00

mula mawala ang inet... dami na nangyari sa office... nanakawan officemate ko... then nagpatawag ng investigation ang management (3rd time na kasi nangyayari)... OK lang saken yun kaso hello?! teka sige start ko from the very beginning... so thurday ng afternoon (sept 23) nawalan na kami ng inet, after work shempre chismisan kaming mga rank & file... 5:40 sabay-sabay kami umalis... may witness pa kong umuwi na ko agad, si allan kasi kasabay ko sa shuttle...Sa atc ako bumaba non kasi nagdinner kami ng fam ko dun (minus dad). Nung fri (sept 24) mga 11:30 am ayan nagwala na si meann, super iyak ng iyak kasi nawawala money niya (8,200 daw ang amount). so si delio initial reaction is to help her kasi baka namisplace or something... tapos nalaman na ng management kaya nagpatawag na yung president ng investigators... super iba pala feeling pag totoo na... kasi ang ginawa lang nila muna kinuha yung fingerprints dun sa pencil case ni meann (dun nakalagay...). Eto ha, walang gloves yung "investigator" nung ginalaw niya yung stuff ni meann... tapos as in yung pencil case lang kinunan ng fingerprints! di man lang yung drawer, i mean shempre naman binuksan muna yung drawer bago makuha yung pencil case diba... anyway, ang scary ng mga tingin nila... super alam mong pinagmamasdan ka nila, lam mo yun?? tapos nagpaparinig-rinig pa. anyway, hanggang dito ok pa ko...
Nung tuesday (sept 27) sinabihan kami ng ultimate witch na si ma'am stela na pumunta daw kami sa precinct for questioning. binigyan pa kami ng pang taxi. nagtext ako kay mom, e shempre mga mom iniisip ang safety ng kanilang baby so nagcontact sha ng lawyer... mejo naweirdohan na sila kasi bat lahat kami? usually daw magmmatch muna ng fingerprint sa pencil case and samin tapos from there yung mga lalabas yung prints edi sila nalang tatanungin. chaka bat daw kami pa pupunta dun... pero anyway sabi kung statement lang naman hihingin sige n rin. basta wag lang ako ihaharass. e ito, ang mga tanong saken...
"pumupunta ka ba sa pwesto ni meann?"
---dumadaan-daan lang po minsan.
"baket?"
---pag may sasabihin ako kay meann, pag may ichichismis ako
"chismosa ka pala"
---lahat naman tayo diba?
"bumalik ka ba nung sept 23 sa office?"
---ano pong day yun?
"huwebes"
---hindi po
"baket may nakapagsabi na bumalik ka daw sa office mo nung araw na yun?"
--- no, that's not true
"nakita mo na ba yung pencil case ni meann na kung saan nakalagay ang pera nya?"
---nung thursday nalang na naghahanapan na
"so pag nakita ko yung fingerprint mo don, ikaw na yun?"
---oo, cge (though pwede kong mag-argue don, um-oo nalang ako, since alam ko naman na wala talaga fingerprints ko don... para matapos nalang)
"bat namumula ka?"
---shempre po kinakabahan.
"baket ka kakabahan kung wala ka naman ginagawa?"
---e shempre kakabahan ka pa rin noh. (super kaba ko di na ko nakaisip ng sagot... sana pala sinabi ko, "gago ka pala eh! tingin mo araw-araw akong ginaganito?! sa buong buhay ko NEVER ako na-accuse o kahit pinagdudahan man lang na nagnakaw tapos ngayon sa halagang 8,200 sisirain ko buhay ko?! tanga ka ba?! edi sinayang ko lang pag-aaral ko! alam mo ba kung gano kamahal mag-aral sa la salle?!?! wala pa sa kalahati ng 8,200 yung binabayad ng magulang ko para mapag-aral ako sa la salle (per tri-sem ha?!)! hello?! sirain ko ba pangalan ko para jan?! nagiisip ka ba?!" ganda sana noh? sayang natense ang lola mo...")
"may boyfriend ka ba?"
---opo
"sinusundo ka nya sa office?"
---minsan
"edi pag iniintay mo sha sa office, naiiwan kang mag-isa sa office niyo?"
---di po, andun pa si james e (janitor)
"si james?! may pinaparating ka ba??"
---wala po! e trabaho nya yun eh, talagang sha yung tigalinis and tiga close ng door"
"kung hindi ikaw ang kumuha, sino ang naiisip mong posibleng kumuha sa inyo?"
---ayoko pong magisip ng ganyan kasi kasama ko sila araw-araw...
kinulit pa ako ng kinulit...
after ko, super naiiyak na talga ko... i really felt bad... dpat magsusumbong na ko sa mom ko, kaso maiiyak lang lalo ako kaya di muna... pag dating sa office, kinwento namin... ang mga lokong officers sabi ba naman "e siguro ganon lang talga yun..." pero pag ako kausap nila, alam kasi nila may kausap na kong lawyer, ganto pagkakasabi "e ganon naman ata talaga diba?" sabi ko, "hindi po." tapos tinext ko na si mama. ayun shempre si mother mejo OA, tatlong lawyers pa ata ang tinanong... hahaha! e mas bwisit ako sa management kasi feeling ko pinabayaan kami... Well ang pinaka-naging lawyer ko si atty.meels isa sa bestfriends ni ate. gusto nila sulat ako letter complaining to the comp. so yun ang next move... pero dami pa yari... but have to go...
to be continued...

Wala na kami internet sa office :(

2005-10-06T17:59:00.000-07:00

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until you LET GO of your past failures and heartaches.

New Blogskin!!!

2005-09-21T12:00:00.000-07:00

La lang... nainspire ako ng cousin kong si Pauline... Tinuruan nya ko mag-add ng music sa blog... Though parang sa kanya lang nagwowork yung sounds... I need your comments peeps!!!Di ko lam kasi kung nagwowork yung music e... As I was saying, I got inspired to make a blogskin tuloy! Nakita ko din kasi yung pix ni Anne Geddes... La lang. Hope you find my blogskin nice. :)

ka-stress...!!!

2005-08-31T16:50:00.000-07:00

Grabe... Kastress ang araw na to... buong day may pinaparush saken... Badtrip! Ngayon tuloy sobrang ngarag na ang beauty ko... Mali-mali na tuloy gawa ko nung huli. hahaha hay... sana matapos na tong araw na to... AYOKO NA!!!!!!

Piscean

2005-08-26T17:30:00.000-07:00

I got this from an email sent by Meann (an officemate).Just wanted to share my zodiac. Hehe With matching comments on the side.Haha

PISCES WOMAN

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality.
---> true...

She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love".
---> part of the dream world, i guess..

She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boyfriend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all.
---> TRUE!

You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman.
---> Shy effect siguro pag di ko pa nakukuha yung guy. Pero pag in love na saken, napapaikot ko yung situation! Haha

She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.
---> NOT!!!! Wala akong patience sa animals... Gusto ko lang nakikita sila sa TV... Pero alaga? Ibang usapan na yun.

She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.
---> Six sense? More of analytical maybe... Usually naman pag pinagisipan mo talaga, alam mo na outcome diba? Sa love, I easily distinguish guys who are sincere to me... Ang prob ko usually, di ko madistinguish kung AKO sincere sa dun sa guy... Di ako nagyayabang or something ha... I think weakness ko nga yun e. Perhaps insecurity pa... Well di sa pagyayabang magaling ako magflirt... Pero takot kasi ako sa rejection, kaya usually pag ON A MISSION ako, 2 fnflirt ko... Para panalo either way! haha Prob lang pag parehong kumagat... Twice na nangyari to...
----SOrry na!!!! Di naman ako conscious non eh! Ngayon nalang nung nakapagreflect na ko and nung mejo stable na ang buhay ko... and nung nakarma nako. hahaha

She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute.
---> oo naman noh! Sino ba naman ang hindi diba??

Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin.
---> Uy di ako nagsabi nito a...

Her hands and feet are small and soft.
---> Sabi ng ex- ko wala pa daw sha nakakakitang mas malambot na kamay na tulad saken. Nax! Para daw sobrang fragile. Haha

Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them.
---> hmmm... I love shoes... I want to buy shoes, but I often don't... Iba na pag pinaghirapan mo yung money na pangbibili mo e.. Parang biglang pumapanget lahat ng shoes. Haha

She is a hot lady that everyone wants her.
---> uy grabeng naman! Di naman siguro EVERYONE! 'ALMOST everyone' lang siguro... Hahaha JOKE!

Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man. It's not even in her thought.She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way.
---> hmmm... I accept that men are stronger, physically. Kaya pa-lady talaga ako... Feeling di kaya magbukas ng pinto magisa... Hahaha---- Pero intellectually, di noh!!! I believe that, whatever women lack physically, we make up for it intellectually!
---- Di ako nagpapatalo, paminsan kahit wala na sa lugar (dipende sa mood)... Reklamo ng bf ko yan (pati ng mga ex-) wahahaha

She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy.
---> hmmm... ewan... moody kasi ako e. Pero sa totoong mga friends ko and sa mga taong gusto ko, tntry ko laging magpakabait!
---- Pag wala ako sa mood, sinasabi ko para intindihin nya ko and wag nya kong kulitin. haha! Pag tntrato kong friend talaga, inaalagaan ko...
---- Pero sa bf ko pinapahula ko mood ko. kaya war lagi! kaya nga feeling ko minsan mas ok akong friend kesa gf. haha!

She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy.
---> confident? sinabi ng kinda insecure ako eh! Pero gusto ko lagi happy ang friends and family ko. :)

She knows how to please and how to comfort a man.
---> Ah oo naman!

If something is wrong, she will try to make other people believe that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one.
---> manisi ba ng iba?? hahaha! ewan ko lang... fair kasi ako... Pag alam kong may laban, fight! Pag wala, cguro tinatry ko ipaintindi yung situation ng love ko, pero di para ipasa sa iba ang blame.

She will not push her man to be ambitious but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now.
---> Ay di ako to... Ambitious ako... Kaya gusto ko yung man ko din ambitious... Demanding? Tawagin mo ng ganon...

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person.
---> Ewan ko kung matatawag na bad childhood ang nangyari saken... Pero yung dad ko kasi mahilig magpromise ng kung ano-ano pero wala.. Puro drawing lang naman... Kaya siguro ganto ako. Di ako madaling magtiwala...Yoko ng salita-salita, gusto ko GAWA! Kaya impt saken na may ambition ang man ko, at gusto ko nakikita kong may ginagawa sha para maabot yun... Di puro salita

She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself.
---> Ewan... Di naman siguro. Bat naman ako maaawa sa sarili ko. Feeling ko pag-lola nako tapos poor pa rin ako, dun! Dun ako maaawa sa sarili ko. haha

She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills).
---> I'm a self-confessed masochist... But drugs & sleeping pills?? No way...

She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take.
---> hmmm... I would like to believe this...

If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.
---> hmmm... mej...

A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong.
---> Dati tinawag akong "heartbreaker" and "runaway bride"...

You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie.
---> True

She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.
---> Marami akong naiisip na pwedeng gift for this person ekek, pero di natutuloy kasi nauuna ang kakuriputan ko. hahaha

Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after.
---> Nabanggit ko na to early. So I guess totoo sha. hahaha

She can be an angel before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right?She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry.
----> Wahahaha! Moody... Indeed!

She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out.
---> True. True.

She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone.
---> True. Greatest fear ko ata yung mag-isa.

She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn.
---> Ayoko mang aminin, duwag rin ako.

She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy.
---> di ba normal lang yun? enemy nga eh... Shempre pag nakita nyang mahina ka somewhere, dun ka aatakihin.

She does not like to follow any fixed rules.
---> yup. :) yung 3 ex-es ko puro illegal yun. At eto malala jan, HR manager ng school namin ang mom ko.Edi maraming sipsip na teacher, sinusumbong ako. Pero todo deny pa rin. hahaha
---- Pero namimili naman ako ng ibbreak na rule.. Dun lang ako sa walang masasaktan kundi ako. hehe

She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her.
---> Ewan ko pa...

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman.
---> Wahahaha! I like this one! Hahaha!

If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.
---> Di ko gets toh... angle? bat angle? o angel ba to? Labo

What's your zodiac? :)

The Answer is : People Power Revolution

2005-08-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

Naalala ko lang kanina, habang nasa shuttle ako... Nung 1st year HS ako, tinanong ako ng classmate ko kung baket ang word na person pag maraming 'persons'... tapos ang 'people', 'people' pa rin. Sabi ko kasi marami na pag-people. Sabi nya baket daw ang "peoples power revolution" may 's'. Napaisip ako... Sabi ko sa kanya iisipin ko muna.

Maya-mama sabi ko sa kanya, "alam ko na!".. Sabi niya, "o ano?"... Explain pa ko, sabi ko "kasi 'people's power' yun... di 'peoples power'". Explain-explain pa ko about apostrophe ekek...Pag uwi ko, tinanong ko si ate kung tama sinabi ko... Sabi niya "PEOPLE POWER naman kasi yun eh! Wala naman talagang 's' dun!" Haha!

Pahiya ako.
Moral of the story, wag magyabang kung wala namang alam. hahaha
kadiri ko...

Late...

2005-08-23T18:00:00.000-07:00

Because of the DFA thingy yesterday, I arrived late in the office yesterday... 10:19 am... That's why I'm making up for it... Yesterday and today, I have to go home at 6:00pm.. Then tomorrow, 5:19... But I was late rin kanina... so dagdag 20mins pa. hahaha! puro bawi...

DFA

2005-08-22T13:20:00.000-07:00

We went to DFA kanina. To sign and place thumbmarks on some papers... We didn't know na bawal pala sleeveless, e shempre ako pasaway nakasleeveless... So after ni ate gawin yung mga gagawin niya, nagchange pa kami ng top. hahaha! tapos after ko magsign ekek palit uli kami kasi di bagay sa shoes ko yung top nya (she was wearing a pink top while i was wearing green *my sandals were also green*). So yun. Inggit ako sa kanila, nagabsent sila... Me nagpalate nalang... Sayang din sweldo eh. hahahah :))

Halay blousie..

2005-08-22T13:15:00.000-07:00

Grabe.. nagmeet na kami in person ni Cutie Blousie... Halay blousie pala ang mas appropriate term para sa kanya... Grabe! Mula sa under nung boobs part pala see-through na!!! as if pangtulog?! Pero ang price... di pangtulog ha?! It's about 2,500php kaya! what?!?!?! Grabe...

Last day of VB class!

2005-08-20T08:50:00.000-07:00

yahoo!!! Today is the last day of our Visual Basic series of classes. :) goodie... My Saturdays are free again! No need to sleep early on Friday nights (well, I never did anyway...), No need to wake up early, no need to bathe (wahaha! yucky...)... Saturday is my rest rest rest day again! Wahoo!!! :)

Cutie blousie!

2005-08-17T17:28:00.000-07:00

Lookie! Ang cutie ng blouse!!! Kung may gusto magregalo saken, welcome na welcome!!!

Sa Hotkiss sha sa rustan's nabibili! hahaha winner diba?!? Wahh!!! I need money!!!!

Ryan and Juday

2005-08-15T15:45:00.000-07:00

Hahaha pati ito patulan ba?! hehewala lang, may nalaman kasi ako. Well as you all know,bedan kasi si ryan. Nung thurs or fri nasa bene daw sha. Eh shempre maraming chismoso't chismosa, including mga secretary ng moms ko. hahatapos tinanong daw nila kung totoong sila ni juday... Ang sagot daw ni Ryan, nakikisakay lang sha sa publicity ng channel 2. Actually semi happy ako, whahah! yoko kasi si juday for ryan... hihi pero sort of kawawa rin si juday, parang ginagamit sha ni ryan.pero ewan... siguro naman alam din ni juday yan kung pakana lang naman ng channel 2 to diba? oh well...

hirap talaga maging sikat.. buti nalang tinanggihan ko offers saken. wahahahaha

Money matters...

2005-08-09T11:35:00.000-07:00

Regular na ko sa work starting yesterday! yipee! May konting increase ako. hehehe woohooo!!!

Actually, I was planning to find a new work na eh. I want something more stat related... There's an opening pa naman sa Pag-ibig, but the position is contractual lang and minimum wage. I was/am interested cause the work would be forecasting. Cool. :) Kaso nanghinayang ako sa increase ko, hahaha! so wait muna ko till December maybe... Para I can say pa rin na mejo tumagal rin ako sa first work ko. Hehe I'm worried lang baka by then mas mahirapan ako maghanap ng work. Oh well...

cutie bloggie!!!

2005-08-08T08:35:00.000-07:00

hiyee!!!!

Cutie ba my blog?? la lang, feel so proud... pinaghirapan ko yan kasi di sha match sa blogger HTML code. hehehe! kaso dami pa kulang... and palya so wait lang kayo jan, pagaaralan ko yan... kahit bawal mag-internet sa office during office hrs! hahaha :)) will do anything for my blogger. wahahahahah!

and by the way, first day ko today as a regular employee!!! yahoo!!! hahahahah :)) naku mashado nako matagal, gotta find a new work! wahaahah! joke!

yun lang muna ngayon!!! mwah mwah!!! :*

Polycystic ovaries

2005-08-01T11:15:00.000-07:00

I have polycystic ovaries... What is it? I wouldn't dare go into the medical explanation of it. All I know is that there is a posibility that I won't be able to have babies. :.( Currently, I am being treated... My OB gave me pills to regularize my menstruation... Pills have many side effects. Some say their boobs become sore (sana dun nalang ako! wahaha), others say they become moody (sila mismo ha? di yung boobs... haha), still others claim that their skin becomes nicer, etc... etc... etc...

During my first set of pills, parang sore boobs ko. (happy naman ako! wahahah!) Too bad, the next month, di na... Now, I'm in my third set... Super drama mood ko... Parang extremely sensitive ako!!! Drrr.. I hate it but I can't help it!!! Sad and api ang drama ko ngayon... hay... life oh life tlaga... wawa ira... inaaway ko lagi... Sorry angel...

Survey... First word the comes to mind

2005-07-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay.
Created by -ambiguous and taken 53667 times on bzoink!
What comes to mind when you hear..
..snow?	snowman
..rain?	tears
..tornado?	scary
..summer love?	fling
..Jon?	huh
..Mike?	Jordan
..Shea?	lotion
..banana?	republic
..dizzy?	stars
..Laura?	Miko
..Juan?	delaCruz
..car?	Audi
..white?	heaven
..peppermint?	spray
..New Found Glory?	peace
..placebo?	science
..orange juice?	orange
..candid camera?	stolen
..sister?	ate
..brother?	kuya
..hate?	liars
..school?	bene
..President?	FVR
..football?	JR
..rap?	tupak
..pop?	britney
..rock?	elvis
..punk?	none
..sex?	motel
..death?	wake
..baby?	love
..duuude?	buddy
..the end?	survey
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Caliraya

2005-07-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

Paradise.

Hmmm...

2005-07-18T05:30:00.000-07:00

Kanina dami ko naisip na isulat dito... Pero ngayon di ko maalala. hahaha! Eto nalang... Lookie!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Landi ko noh?!?! Ala magawa eh... hahahaha!

Cute ba o pacute o kadiri?!?! hahaha! I need your comment/s!!!! Thanks super friends... na pumapansin sa kalokohan ko!!!! :)

Share ko lang... Maniniwala ka bang yan ang wallpaper ko?!? hahahahahahah :)

Fuchsia Pink Stiletto

2005-07-14T09:15:00.000-07:00

While I was window shopping at Festival, I saw this super cute stiletto at Rusty Lopez (ata)... Anyway, I wanted to buy it. But my mom said it the heels were too high and too thin! So, I had to try it on... It was perfect... The color, the style, the fit... And it made my feet look nice and sexy...

But then... The back of my knees started to ache a little... And I was wearing it for only 5mins! My mom said it was impractical to buy it... So I asked my sister to take a picture of me wearing the cute stiletto...

I couldn't stand wearing the stiletto for more than 5 mins but at least the picture would last a lifetime. :)

Pause...

2005-07-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

Happy moments, praise God.

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

Nice quote.. Got it from a forwarded mail... Wanted to share it with you. :)

Miko's 21st bday

2005-07-11T12:40:00.000-07:00

The Birthday boy Miko, Juris of MYMP and the ever beautiful ME! :)

Pasaway nawala lahat ng tinype ko kanina... So.. Ulit...

Last Saturday, we celebrated Miko's 21st birthday... It was a surprise party planned by Raisa (the sister) and Piah (the girlfriend)... The party was held at The Conservatory - Manila Peninsula.

Ang akala ni Miko, aattend sila ng renewal of vows ng grandparents ni Piah, so mega kaba pa si Miko. Ang funny pa, kasi shempre we were all waiting for him to enter the room na tapos biglang nag-call ang gf niya kay raisa, nag-CR daw muna si Miko kasi super kaba. Nwei, close friends and relatives ang nandun... Pero shempre mejo malaki rin ang family namin and dami rin sha close friends so nasa 100 din ang visitors niya.

Bukod dun, may 2 more surprises pa for him. Yung una, may video presentation... Yung mga pictures niya since birth, then videos niya nung bata pa sha yung nagwawala sha sa pagsasayaw sa Batangas... Super funny nga eh, galing yung mga videos na yun sa aunt kong nasa US... Pag nandito kasi sha edi mega video samin ekek, yun tuloy... Caught ni the act si Miko. hahaha!!! Ako nahihiya for him e! haha! Tapos si Raisa and Piah kasi ininterview lahat ng relatives and friends ni Miko, para mag-greet, magsabi ng fondest memory of Miko & birthday wish. So yun pinakita rin yun... :) Dapat nga wala ako dun kasi nung pumunta si Raisa sa house namin, wala ako... E sabi ni tita Heidi (the mom), kelangan andun ako kasi best cuz daw. So pinuntahan pa ko here sa office ni Raisa last Tuesday! Napatulog pa ako sa kanila ng wala sa oras. hahaha! Fun naman...

Then... Ang last surprise for him and even for his guests... Yung band... Guess who...?!?!?!? M.Y.M.P. lang naman!!!!!!!! grabe nga e! Ang nice ng voice ni Juris!!! Ganun pa din kahit live. Badtrip lang ang daming nagpapadiscover, yung una kasi pinakanta niya pa sina Piah and Raisa... Tapos kumanta yung cuz ni Miko sa father side, (in fairness yun lang ang may K kumanta... ang super nice ng voice niya... ka-level ni Juris... Nalaman namin, kumakanta naman pala talaga daw sha...) Tapos mamaya yung ibang friends rin ni Miko kumanta na!!! As in ni di man lang kasabay ni Juris pag may kumakanta ha! Sila lang! Ang kaps! Panira! Haha! Nkakatawa nga eh. Hehe ANg konti lang tuloy nakanta ng MYMP... Sayang bayad.. parang kinuha lang nila MYMP para tugtugan sila. hahah! oh well, parents naman ni Miko mag-pay so ok lang. haha! Tapos shempre si Miko pinakanta rin, pero with Juris na naman... and bday naman nya. Yun lang... Sharing lang!!!

Belated Happy Birthday Miko!!!

Trip lang. :)

2005-07-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

gaya kay ate...

FIRSTS
1. 1st time you tried smoking: haven't tried
2. 1st alcoholic drink you had: Beer... Yuck!
3. 1st time you entered a bar: 1st year college... Cebu or Dumaguete ata...
4. 1st award you received: Conduct Awardee (grade 4, wahaha!)
5. 1st hero: Superman
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal: grade 1 ata... Spy ako ng principal e, tinatanong niya ko about my teachers. haha! Sinusumbong ko yung mga ayaw ko. hahaha!
7. 1st time you failed in school: Grade 5 ata.. Hekasi (post test lang ha)
8. 1st college entrance exam you took: UPCAT din siguro
9. 1st teacher in highschool: homeroom teacher i guess, Ma'am Cheeth
10. 1st job: Actuarial assistant
11. 1st crush in highschool: D.B.
12. 1st person na binigyan mo ng flowers? Mom ni Loo (?)
13. 1st date: Yung ordinary date lang na d ko nafeel na date -> siguro sa 1st bf ko
Yung mejo totoong date yung mejo gumagastos na talaga tipong TGIF na (di na Mcdo
kmkaen -> 3rd bf
Yung mas exciting na date na, tipong watch ng concert chuva ->current boyfriend,
Feb. 14, 2003 BoyzIImen concert @ the Fort
14. 1st friend: Mara Pascual

walang 15 so gawa nalang ako ng sarili kong tanong?
15. 1st hubby: wala pa. hahaha!

16. 1st movie you watched with (a) friend/s: hmmm... hirap naman!!! kalimot ko na...
17. 1st fight with a friend: ay sus.. Grade 3 ata... kids...
18. 1st gift you received from a friend: hmmm.. stationery cguro... adik ako dun dati e
19. 1st gift you gave to a friend: statio din siguro
20. 1st record you bought: Mariah Carey!!! Music Box and Daydream (tape pa yun ah!)
21. 1st song you sang infront of many people: baka yung pag songfest namin sa bene.hahaha!
22. 1st musical instrument you learned to play: naku! sa dami di ko na maalala! hahaha! joke,wala e...
23. 1st concert you watched: yung sa bene lang? Side A ata...
yung totoo? BoyzIImen!
24. 1st celebrity you saw in person: naman... cguro nung una kong nakita face ko sa mirror. JOKE! hmmm... Cguro si Snooky kasi kapitbahay namin sha before...
25. 1st TV show you really liked: Atpb., Hiraya Manawari, Bayani. hahaha! Kinda matanda na ko nun ah. hahaha
26. 1st book you bought: Sweet Valley Kids!!!
28. 1st sport you're into: three-legged race!!!
29. 1st sleepover: naku naman... ayaw ni papa nyan... i guess sa cousins, at the Ver's residence
kung di yun counted, edi nung college na... Kena Mel!!! Nov. 2001 yun.
hahaha!
30. 1st terrible fight: malamang 3rd bf ko yung kaaway ko dito... siguro Nov/Dec. 2000
31. 1st rank: hmmm... trick question ba to? hmmm... one?
32. 1st inaanak: Iñaqui!!! Emilie's baby
33. 1st debut party you attended: Ate Ruth's din siguro...
34. 1st time you spent the night alone? Never pa ata... Paminsan sa room magisa ako pag ala si ate, pero naman! nasakabila naman sina mama... NOT counted!
35. 1st bestfriend: Cheryl Duran
36. 1st wedding you attended: Cant remember
37. 1st person who greeted you on your last birthday: Azzura :)
38. 1st friend in friendster: What?! Sino nga ba nag-invite saken dun? Baka si ex_3
39. 1st time you got lost: baka sa glorietta. hahaha! dami kasi pasikot-sikot! pero nahanap ko naman way ko... tagal nga lang...
40. 1st cellphone: Siemens benta saken ng bf ni kuya! (bestfriend ha! hahaha) si Volts...
42. 1st collection: Stickers!!!
44. 1st time you saw a ghost: dont believe they exist e...
45. 1st rollercoaster ride: roller skaters @ EK!!! (yung pang kids?! hahaha)
46. 1st school you attended: Bene na, dapat Montessori de Manila kaso 1 day lang ako pumasok, nagtago pa ko sa table, yoko umalis don till di ako sinusundo nina mama! yoko pa pumasok eh!
48. 1st ambition: taxi driver, teller, detective! sabay2 ko yun ambition dati... yun lagi laro ko. hahaha
49. First Serious Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ano ba meaning ng serious... yung may anniv? edi yung
nung sept.14, 1999
O yung sineryoso ko tlaga? edi yung nung Oct.24, 2000
50. first heart break: Edi ex_3 rin siguro...

LASTS
LAST LETTER OF YOUR NAME: 'A'
LAST HAIRCUT: Yesterday!!! Tapos nagpa-Tutti Frutti hair spa ko. hahaha
LAST CRY: last month ata...
LAST SWEAR: 2 yrs ago. charoosh! hmmm... ewan, seldom na kasi... :)
LAST SONG HEARD: Sweet thing -Nina
LAST WATCHED TV SHOW: The Buzz
LAST WEBSITE: friendster
LAST YELL: hmmm... cant remember
LAST MOVIE: Mr. and Mrs. Smith
LAST RECEIVED CALL: Lineth (secretary/marketing)
LAST DIALLED CALL: Ira
LAST BATH: 6:00 am
LAST FIST FIGHT: kahit with kuya's palm lang? hmmm... last week?
LAST CLUBBING PLACE: Aposento rin... ate's bday
LAST HARD-LAUGH: hmmm... June 29, sa phone... talking with ira
LAST TIME U FELT SICK: last friday
LAST EXERCISE: hmmm... nung di pa ko work... so nung January
LAST TIME U HAD CRUSHES: May crush pa ko! Si mark bautista!
LAST TIME U FELL DEEPLY IN LOVE: every waking morning, im falling deeper in love with ira. Mushy!
LAST FOOD EATEN: pandesal
LAST DRINK: Water
LAST TIME U BOUGHT A VCD/DVD: Wedding date
LAST PERSON U KISSED: Ira!
LAST TAKEN PHOTO OF URSELF: di ako mashado mahilig magpa-pic! hahaha! joke! yung sa phone lang, baka yesterday... habang gmgerbs ako. hahaha! yuck ba? haha! sige di na yun counted, yung sa studio nalang... 3 months ago. ay nung binyag pala ni iñaqui, May 29...
LAST THING SAID ONLINE: np
LAST TIME U GOT ANGRY: hmm... tagal na!... last week siguro. hahaha
LAST TIME U BROKE A GLASS: hmmm... forgot na
LAST MALL U WENT TO: Glorietta
LAST TIME U TRIPPED AND FELL: hmmm... pwede bang slipped and fell?
LAST PERSON U MISSED: Mishy
LAST TIME U WENT OUT WITH FRIENDS: Kitt's bday, at his house... Out ba yun? If di yun counted, Iñaqui's binyag...
LAST PLACE U WENT TO: office...
LAST TIME U PRAYED: yesterday
LAST PERSON WHO MADE U A TEST: Unionbank
LAST PERSON YOU'VE WRITTEN A TESTI: Me-ann (officemate)
LAST PERSON WHO SENT YOU A MESSAGE AT FRIENDSTER: Revini

You're right...

2005-06-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

Yup, I guess you're right Tely... I should be thankful for having a job... Anyway, share ko lang yung nangyari... Nagka-increase nga... Sila nga lang... Kasi daw probationary palang ako... Honestly, I'm kinda disappointed... Pero iniisip ko nalang sinabi ni Tely... And besides, di naman ako magtatagal rin dito... Next year kasi I plan to look for another job na, a job that suits my interest better... Decided na ko, I want to be a Statistician... An analyst... Not an actuary...

So why next year pa ko aalis? My advisers told me kasi na pangit daw tignan sa resume yung papalit-palit ng work... As in like, tig-3 months lang sa company ekek... Anyway, kaya ayun... intay ko muna ma-permanent ako... (sa August...) Pero since August na rin yun, tapusin ko na till December para mejo malaki 13th month pay ko... And sabi samin, kapag nareach namin yung quota, magkaka-bonus pa kami by the end of the year... E sayang rin naman... So I'll wait for it nalang diba?? Sabay exit... hahaha!

Life oh life...

2005-06-24T15:30:00.000-07:00

Ini-evaluate kaming lahat ngayon... Nung una, sabi pa... Iba na daw ang basis & procedures ngayon, ekek... Depende na daw sa evaluation yung magiging increase namin, kaya yung iba pwedeng walang increase... Tapos sabi ni Sir sa isa sa officemates ko, ittry daw niya habulin yung increase by the end of the month.

Ngayon, e mejo tapos na ata sila mag-evaluate... Nagtanong isa ko pang officemate sa isang officer if mag-kakaron na ng increase, ang sagot "di ba nagka-increase na tayo nung January? Baket pa tayo mag-iincrease ngayon??".

Pinaasa mo lang ako!

Bitin na bitin ako! owuwoaw...!

Hindi ko na alam kung makakakaya ko pa,

di bale nalang kaya...?!

Isang malaking joke joke joke lang pala ang lahat... Ewan, baka naman mali lang talaga kami ng intindi... Baka naman trip lang talaga nila mag-evaluate... Oh well...

Ganyan talaga ang buhay...

tenenen-tententententen... (di ko lam lyrics)

Funniest Mishy & Tessa kalokohan...

2005-06-17T17:10:00.000-07:00

Nung HS graduation namin (as in graduation day mismo, March 31), nagbreak kami nung boyfriend ko (nung panahon na yon...). Edi nung gabi, mega cry ako kay Mishy! Kausap ko sha sa phone, dinadamayan nya ko. Sinusumpa na namin lahat ng lalaki sa mundo! Pati sha (Mishy) iyak na rin! hahaha! Natapos kami magdramahan, mga 2 A.M. na.

The next day (April 1), nagyaya si Emilie... May graduation party sha. So si Mish nagreready na, e ako di ko pa sure kung punta ako, sabi ko kay Mish. Sa totoo, katext ko na yung boyfriend ko nun, we were trying to fix thing na... So nung bati na kami, nung kami na ULIT. Tinext ko si Mish, sabi ko 'kami na uli!'. Naloka si Mish kasi sayang yung pinuyat namin! hahaha! Ang masama pa nun, di ako pinayagan ng boyfriend kong pumunta kena Emi, kaya ayun! Since may hang-over pa si Mish, habang andun sha kena Emi, may nasagot shang guy! hahahaha! O diba instant boyfriend! Cousin ni Emi yun eh. April fools day pa ang anniv nila diba?! Ayun, pagkauwi ni Mish... Nung may tulog na sha, ayun! nagwawala na ang gaga! Ayaw na sa BF nya! Natauhan na daw sha! hahaha! e sabi ko ang sama naman niya, mejo bigyan naman niya ng chance sabi ko intay naman sha ng one week. Ayun, nagtagal nga sila ng one week. Ni di sila nagkita kahit once sa one week na yun ha. hahaha! nung saktong one week after, nakipagbreak na ang loka. hahaha! wala lang... sharing lang.

Duwag ako...

2005-06-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

Kanina nag-post ako ng sama ng loob ko dito sa office namin. Pero dahil duwag ako... Pinili kong burahin kasi baka may makabasa at lagot pa ko. Anyway, isa lang masasabi ko, dapat matuto tayong tanggapin ang mga pagkakamali natin. Lahat tayo nag-kakamali, kahit bise-presidente o presidente man. Hindi nakatutulong ang paninisi ng ibang tao. Yun lang.

Michelle Victoria

2005-06-16T17:30:00.000-07:00

Mishy is my bestest friend. She is always there to listen to all of my stories, to comfort me (when I need it), and to stand by me (through all of my fights).

But it wasn't like that before...

When we were in 2nd year HS, we were enemies. Haha! We had a crush with the same guy kasi. But the thing was, the guy was my org-mate. So there were times na, he would bring me to my classroom, with matching carrying pa of my bag. Haha! E ang lakas naman kasi ng radar nina Mishy noh, I don't know why malimit nila kami nakikita or nakakasalubong. Tapos harap-harapan magbubulungan sila ng friend niya! At eto pa ha! As in nakatingin samin, taas pa yung isang kilay! Edi shempre sobrang uncomfortable nun & it was very irritating! Then nung third year HS, naging classmate ko si Mishy, e magkasunod kami sa queue kasi magkasunod surname namin. Nung una naisip ko pa ang plastic niya. Haha!

(Hey Mish, this is my side of the story ok? Just post a comment if you disagree. Haha!)

But thanks to our BORING subjects, we discovered our similarities! I remember our mini-cutting classes, where we ask permission to go to the CR, pero 10-15mins na before we go back to our room. haha! Pero sa totoo, we just tour the whole HS building. Haha! Then nung huli mejo, lumalala na... cutting classes na talaga, haha ang palusot punta sa clinic... May sakit kunyari, pero mga 5mins lang kami sa clinic pero di na kami babalik sa classroom. Actually mejo mas complicated pa yan kasi kelangan namin dumaan ng prefect of disciplines to log yung time-in and out namin sa clinic. Oh well, nagagawan na namin ng way yun. Haha! Ang corny lang di kami makalabas ng school kasi puno ng guards lahat ng gates ng bene, makalabas ka man, may main gate pa.

(Pero pag may school activity nakakalabas ako ng school *with the help of my big bro* Hahaha!)

Back to Michelle... Twice pa lang kami mejo di nagkasundo.

4th year HS. There was a time when my then-boyfriend didn't want me to go with my friends because we had an issue with one of my friends... Since, all my friends were hearing the side of the other person... Shempre mejo mas kampi sila dun. Including Mish, pero in fairness to her, tinatawagan niya pa din ako sa house nun and she tried to understand my confusion.
When she & my cousin were an item. I wasn't in favor of them kasi nung start natakot ako na baka saktan niya cousin ko. Pero nung gitna, ok na. Pero nung huli, narealize ko na tama nga pala ako... Though baliktad pala nangyari... Haha!

I say, our friendship is super personalized... People may think it's weird but it works for us. We don't talk regularly (but when we do... EXAG talaga!). We don't regularly see each other, (sometimes nga once a year lang kami mag-meet ata!). But, we talk about ANYthing and EVERYthing under the sun. Her fight is MY fight (she knows that...) and vice-versa.

Why Ex-factor matters...

2005-06-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

My mom told me that it isn't advisable for teenagers to have a boy/girlfriend because during this phase she says, a person is building his/her identity. Kaya pag may boy/girlfriend, the tendency is to identify his/her person with the other person (like, "I am the girlfriend of...") Gets?

Anyway, I guess I should have listened to my mom. Hahaha!

During those times din siguro, sensitive tayo sa mga nangyayari and sinasabi sa tin... Talagang namang it could make or break your self-esteem...

Ito ang two most memorable lines na natanggap ko:

1st runner-up: "Di mo kelangan magpaturo jan (referring to me). Mas matalino ka pa jan eh!"
-Siguro kaya affected ako mashado kasi it came from a much older person, someone who ideally knows better. And my Gosh, she was the mother of my boyfriend (THEN!).

Grand prize winner: "Di ko sigurado kung ikaw pa rin pipiliin ko pag may ibang dumating."
-To think that he was your world. (In fairness, binawi naman nya yun. Way nya lang daw yun para matakot ako. And nakita ko naman na talagang faithful naman sha nung kami.)

"Words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair."

Sorry, drama day today...

Hi Telywely. :)

2005-06-16T08:25:00.000-07:00

Thanks sa pag-pansin sa blog ko! hahahah :)

Yup,

You are one of the few relevant persons in my life,

whom I want to share my thoughts with. :)

Badtrip...

2005-06-15T17:00:00.000-07:00

Hay... May mali akong ginawa na work dati... E bumalik ngayon saken, drrrr... Kakahiya... Minus 10,000 points ako!!! Ine-evaluate pa naman kami ngayon... Badtrip... :(

What a shame!!!!

2005-06-15T08:30:00.000-07:00

kanina pababa ako ng fx, nagslip ako!!!!!!!!!!!!! as in!!! kasi yung shuttle na nasakyan ko, yung 2 bars na magkaharap yung style.. lam mo yun? yung parang jeep. tapos pababa na ako, yung heel ng shoes ko dumulas sa 2nd step pababa!!! yung position ko yung parang nagsslide ba ako? ayun nahulog pa yung blazer ko sa street. napa-sigaw nga ako eh. hahaha siguro nagtinginan sila lahat. hay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kahiya!!! malimit ko pa naman kasabay sa shuttle yung mga yun... everytime makikita nila ko shempre iisipin nila, "ay sha yung nadulas nung isang araw." waaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!! oh well... that's life!

What happened?

2005-06-14T13:25:00.000-07:00

Ito ang tanong na bumabagabag saken pag naiisip ko yung dati kong bestfriend.

Ganto kasi yun...
Bestfriend ko sha mula 1st yr HS till 3rd year... Super nagkakasundo naman kami, pareho kaming tahimik... (wahahaha! hindi rin! sha lang... inaakala lang na tahimik ako kasi sha kasama ko) So ayun, nung 3rd year na kami, edi shempre lumalabas na ang kalandian sa mga katawan... May ka-M.U. ako, (sha yung 1st bf ko) e mega torpe naman kasi yun noh!!! feeling ko wala kaming mapapala pareho kung di ko papakita na sasagutin ko naman sha pag nanligaw sha. hahaha! e ang tagal naman kasi...
Nung panahon na rin na yun, addict pa ko sa MIRC... (para sa mga slow: CHAT yun. haha!)... Anyway, may nakaclose ako sa chat. Yung crush ng bestfriend ko. Pero hello?! As in sa internet lang kami close, pero sa school di naman kami halos nagpapansinan noh. Pero ewan ko sa lalaking yun one day (sa chat pa din shempre) inamin niyang may crush daw sha saken. Ganto nangyari (alala ko pa, kasi nabasa ko sa diary ko.) pinapahula niya crush niya saken, edi hula naman ako...shempre puro mali,tapos sabi ko finally, "alam ko na, ako siguro!" (haha! kadiri!) eh um-oo sha. akala ko joke lang, kya sabi ko "crush din kita eh.edi mag-MU pala tayo!" (pagbigyan niyo na, 3rd yr HS plang ako nyan...haha!) chaka for the record naman! alam niya na crush ko yung kada nya noh! (si X_1) Anyway, naging serious ang usapan, tinanong ko kung siryoso sha, oo daw. edi nagulat ako! sabi ko lang, "kala ko si _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (bestfriend ko) crush mo". sabi nya di raw, lnloko lang daw sa kanya yun. so tnanong ko bat di yung bestfriend ko crush niya e mas pretty naman yun saken, sabi nya ang tahimik daw mashado... kung silang dalawa ang magkasama edi wala daw imikan yun... something like that sinabi niya. natawa pa nga ako eh. pero ayoko naman pagpilitan sa kanya yung friend ko kasi shempre mahahalata edi pinatay ako ng friend ko. Tinanong niya kung ako daw serious sa crush ko sha e d pa talaga ako marunong magreject nung panahon na to noh! (well hanggang naman sa huli kong guy na nareject,di pa din ako swabe...) anyway, ang sagot ko "di ko pa sure. pero ina-admire ko sha." what?!?!? hahaah vague... definitely vague... so parang dalawa ang ka-MU ko non (bad ba yun? e crush lang naman ang MU diba?). Nung una di ko sinasabi sa bestfriend ko, dun muna sa common bestfriend namin ko cnabi... nagpa-advise ba. after about 3 days nasabi ko na rin sa bestfriend ko,nung una ok lang daw.pero mejo nagtampo sha,nafeel ko iniiwasan niya ko.e ako rin naman guilty so mejo lumalayo rin... oh well, nung HS dance nung year na yun dalawa ang date ko. (fine, ito talagang bad... pero iba nang kwento to kaya skip na) the day after nung dance yun na din ang last day na nagkachat kami nung guy, actually nagleave lang sha ng message sa ICQ ko, niwish niya kami ni edward ng goodluck at nilagay niya yung lyrics ng Before I Let You Go, sabi niya every time maririnig ko yun, maaalala ko sha. Tapos the following week sa school, ayun marami na akong narinig... Tinatawag daw akong "heartbreaker" nung guy, tapos sinabi niya nanligaw daw sha ekek. e hello?!?! not once niya ko nilapitan sa school nung panahon na yun noh! naguusap lang kami pag nagiintay ng sundo sa Gate 6 at sa chat! pag nagkakasalubong nga kami ni mag-"hi" hiyang-hiya sha eh! o anyway, deadma nalang ako about it nun kasi may bago rin akong bf non, so shempre nasa bf ko ang focus ko. hehe

anyway, nung panahon na to mejo di na kami mashado nakakapag-usap ng bestfriend ko... Parang sort of "we drifted apart..." (wahahaha! ang drama!!!!). As I was saying, aminado naman din ako na malaki ang fault ko kasi mula magka-bf ako paminsan nalang ako sumasama sa kanya (and sa sort-of-barkada namin). E magkaiba pa kami ng section, physci ako sha naman liacom. Nung 4th year HS na kami dun na talaga kami di na nagkakasama, nagkaron kasi ako ng bagong barkada (and bagong boyfriend...). Pero pag nagkikita kami sa school, nagbabatian naman kami. Ang funny nga e, bigla nalang one day napansin ko magkasama sila nung guy, as in the guy kanina na knkwento ko. I was super happy for them, I remember pa nga the first time I saw them together yung reaction ko yung parang nashock na nakangiti (alam mo yun, yung ang laki ng mata tapos naka-open yung mouth na pangiti & labas dimples? hehe) tapos natawa pa sila pareho. So alam ko na walang issue talaga nung panahon na yun.

Alala ko pa nung 1st yr college (2nd trimester), e nagkakalabuan na kami ng 3rd bf ko... tapos nagkita pa kami ng bestfriend ko sa North Gate ng DLSU. Iniintay niya kasi yung boyfriend niya. Tapos nagkamustahan kami, alanm ko nakwento ko pa sakanya na mejo magulo na kami ng boyfriend ko. Tapos tinanong ko pa sha kung kamusta na sila, ok naman daw sila. Nagcomment pa ko na, "going strong ha!" with matching smile. E dumating na sundo ko so umalis na ko.

A year after that, sabi ni Mishy nakita niya yung guy and dati kong bestfriend sa ATC, tapos nag-hi daw sha. Yung guy nag-hi naman sa kanya pero yung dati kong bestfriend di sha pinansin. E sabi ko naman, ganun talaga yun minsan. Tapos nung bday niya (dati kong bestfriend), nigreet ko sha & kinamusta (through text lang). basta nafeel ko na ang cold niya, so inask ko why tapos di na sha nagreply. Weird. Tapos sa friendster, I tried to add her... Di nya ko add (in fairness, di naman niya ko reject din). so i tried to add the guy (just to see kung praning ako or talagang may galit ang loka saken), aba! nireject po ako. so sure nako diba?! tapos nagmessage ako sa dati kong bestfriend, tinanong ko bat sha galit and bat naman kung kelan pa kami di naguusap dun pa sha nagalit. Walang reply. Tapos nag-ask din ako sa common friend namin, sabi lang daw "hayaan nalang na ganun.". Tapos pinatanong ko din sa isa kong bestfriend na friend niya din, ang sagot lang daw "di pa ko ready pagusapan". O diba ang arte? e mejo more than 3 yrs na ata shang galit saken noh.

Sabi ng friends ko, nagawa ko na yung part ko. Kung ayaw nya sabihin, wag ko na din pilitin. Mag-move on nalang ako. Besides, sila naman ang nagdadala ng galit jan, ako walang nararamdaman kasi ALAM kong wala naman akong ginawang masama sa kanila.

The Ex- Factor

2005-06-10T17:20:00.000-07:00

Naisip ko ipost din dito yung pinost ko sa isa kong blog kasi about saken din naman to. so here goes...

Oo, maaga akong lumandi, kumerengkeng, o kung ano man ang gusto niyong itawag. 15 years old palang ako nung una akong nagka-boyfriend. 3rd year HS… Paminsan naiisip ko sana di nalang ako agad nag-bf, baka mas matino siguro ako mag-isip ngayon kung ganon. Pero pag SOBRANG inisip ko naman nga nangyari, naiisip ko na siguro mabuti na rin na nangyari ang mga nangyari… At least ngayon may nasusulat ako sa blog ko diba… (haha!) In fairness, marami naman akong natutunan sa mga ex- ko… May mga nakabuti, pero siguro may mga nakasama rin… Naisipan kong isulat dito ang mga highlights ng relationship ko with my ex-es…

1st Boyfriend Facts:

- Anniversary date: September 14, 1999 (official)

- Anniversary date: September 13, 1999 (unofficial)

- Baket?
~Di niya alam na sinagot ko na sha
~Ayoko yung date

- Ayaw saken ng mom niya.
~Once, I mean twice… Nung tinuturuan ko yung si X_sub_1 sa Math over the phone… E yung mom niya pinapababa na yung fone, shempre sabi nya nagpapaturo pa sha. Ang sabi ba naman, “Bat ka magpapaturo jan eh mas matalino ka pa jan!”. The nerve!!! E in fairness naman mas magaling naman ako sa math kesa sa kanya noh.
~Tapos nung break na kami nabanggit lang nung ex ko nay un na sabi ng mom nya, “bat ba patay na patay ka jan? E napakapalekera naman.” Something like that… O diba love na love talaga ako ng nanay niyang kapangalan ko pa (bwisit!) at ka-brithday ko pa! (talaga naman o!)

- Pangit yung start namin kasi nagka-issue pa sila nung isa niya barkada (hay… nagging mahabang prob to, till now di pa rin ako pinapakawalan ng issue na to bwisit! Sa ibang entry ko nalng discuss)

- Marami akong kasalanan sa kanya, di ako mashado loyal/faithful…

- Sa mga taong di talaga alam kung ano ang nangyari samin, iisipin na ang reason kaya kami nagbreak e nakahanap na ko ng kapalit

- 7 months kami mag-boyfriend. Though di ko alam kung kelan kami exactly nagbreak, kasi bigla nalang nawala na. Basta April 2000 yun eh. Haha!

2nd Boyfriend Facts:

- Anniversary date: May 17, 2000

- Six years older than me yung guy

- Rebound relationship…

- Sometimes di sha counted (I mean pag may nagtatanong kung ilan na nagging bf ko, lagi minus one ang count. Haha!), eh kasi super fast lang yun eh, like 1 or 2 months ata… See? Ni di ko alam…

- In fairness, lagi niya ko binibili ng favorite kong candy…

- And para talaga akong princess kung itrato

- Nung nagbreak kami nung 3rd bf ko, nanligaw uli sha…

3rd Boyfriend Facts:

- Anniversary date: October 24, 2000

- Magulo ang mundo nung kami
~ Mraming kontra (or inggit?) kasi di daw ako bagay sa kanya kasi maraming may crush sa kanya
~ Love ako ng mom niya pero di ako gusto ng sister niya kasi di ako Chinese
~ Though illegal ang relationship namin sa parents ko, mejo may alam sila about him… And di rin sila mashado approve
~ Ayaw din sha ng sister ko
~ Immature pa kami pareho nun, kaya away kami ng away

- We lasted for a year despite all of that… We broke up on November 4, 2001.

- Nasaktan ako ng sobra nung nagbreak kami, pero narealize ko na worth it di lahat kasi marami akong natutunan sa kanya kaya kahit papano nagmature ako ng konti
~ Natuto akong maging faithful
~ Maging patient
~ Natutong ipaglaban kung ano man ang natitirang dapat ipaglaban
~ Maging mature ng konti
~ Nabawasan ang pride kahit papano

My fourth is still my current. I am extremely proud to say that we’ve been together for 27 months already (my longest). There have been a lot of down moments, fights, and ALMOST-break-up-scenes. But then again there are also a bunch of fun & happy moments, lots of kilig moments, and extreme contentment in our relationship. I can honestly say that this is my best relationship so far. I’m not saying this only because we are still together, but also because our relationship is a perfect mixture of all possible emotions (that I know of). I guess the difference between my relationship with my current beau and all the previous ones is that we trust and respect each other. And this time, (I would like to believe that) our relationship is a two way street.

Anniversary Date: February 28, 2003 :)

How others view me...

2005-06-08T13:00:00.000-07:00

Some people say I'm a snob... Others, friendly. Some say I'm a flirt, others conservative. Some call me 'palekera' (play girl), others say I'm 'loyal'. Some people say I'm sweet & thoughtful, while other people call me insensitive & ulyanin (forgetful). My relatives believe I'm a certified lakwachera, my blockmates thought I was a nerd... Some would say that I've matured over the years, but the rest would claim that I am such a brat (till now...).

I must admit I myself, am not sure which of those describe me best. But I guess, all of those fit my description in some way... Well, except for the palekera thing... hehehe! Well, ok... before... I WAS...

Anyway, here are some of my traits I believe I possess... (now, this is me describing ME...)

I'm very moody... Very frank... Very tactless... Very talkative... Very passionate in everything I do...